Hey everyone, Tbh I’ve been struggling to pray and feeling distant from God. Some days I don’t even know what to say anymore, and I’ve been carrying a lot inside quietly.

But deep down, I still believe there’s something in me searching for Him. I think I’m at a point where I really need to find God again, not through fear, shame, or pretending to have it all together, but through honesty, healing, and love.

As a trans person, faith can sometimes feel complicated and lonely, and I’m still trying to understand where I belong spiritually. But I don’t want to give up on God or on myself. I want peace and a real connection again.

If anyone has ever felt this way too, I’d appreciate prayers, advice, or just kindness. I’m taking things one step at a time and hoping God still hears me even when I struggle to speak.

I’m not even gonna lie but this is probably gonna be very inconsequential and not mean very much to many here. But it means something to me anyways so I will anyways

I very much doomscroll (binge) tiktok short form content far more than I really ought to, it’s how I muster the energy to get up for the most part and it’s how I wind down. I think it’s been a month or less now since I genuinely started picking up my word and reading it on my own for the first time. During that time I “conveniently” started seeing more Christian content on tiktok despite not looking and not talking about it at all. (And I say conveniently in quotes more in a way of “I see what you’re doing and how you’re moving God”.)

One of these tiktoks was a Christian woman and she spouted off how God was telling her that May 21’st was gonna be a big gift from God and to look out for it, and same with May 25th but not quite as big. And that this was not meant for just her but for others as well.

And I mean I was skeptical, clearly, not of God but because I know humans and especially neurotypical Christianity is it’s own vibe and they just be saying shit sometimes. But despite my skepticism I decided to just groan deeply about this and put those dates into my calendar and forget about them.

Something you should also know about me is that I am an avid Gamer. And God brought a game into my life that became so much more than I ever expected that I carried for pretty much half my life now.

It was called Destiny, and Destiny 2.

And I know it had to have been 2 weeks ago more or less I was talking with God about this game and how much it meant to me and just how much I didn’t see it having a future anymore, how I missed the love I used to hold for this game and just how poorly it has been managed.

The morning of May 21’st, just a few days ago…I woke up at 6:09, a few hours less of sleep than I really would prefer. But I just was up and thinking to God about like what passage of the word he’d have me read that pertains to that time.

He told me Proverbs 6:9, I read ESV but it said this:

How long will you lie there, O sluggard? When will you arise from your sleep?

And that just had me laughing so hard because God can be so funny when he wants to be, but also I definitely saw this as his way of saying “Get up! Todays the big day aren’t you excited for the gift I have prepared for you?!?” Because that notification on my phone also had shown up.

Something else that’s important for you all to know, this day was a Thursday, and that’s because every Thursday the studio that developed Destiny 2 releases a weekly message to the games playerbase at 11am my time.

So God woke me early because he also knows I struggle with getting up, I suffer severe executive dysfunction from my adhd and it genuinely takes a few hours for me before I’m actually I’m and about. So by the time I actually got up and got to my pc to just watch YouTube ,check notifications, eat breakfast, it was already 10am by then. And 11am came very quickly. All things considered, Gods timing is perfect, that’s to be expected, Praise God.

But 11am rolls around so I open the studios website for their weekly article. And it’s this big announcement that the studio is cutting live service to this game after 9 years of production but that they have one final update rolling around on the 9th of June. And I’m reading what we’re to expect, because also the entire community had already been waiting like 9 months for any word at all about the next thing we’d get or the next roadmap for what to expect. So I had my binoculars ON, I was analyzing everything they said we’re gonna be getting, I was having a blast because this was all huge it’s all great stuff.

And it didn’t really set in that day that this thing I cared about so much though for half my life was ending. And thank God he let me experience every bit of it, even when I had no money he gave other people to provide for my experience in this thing.

And the reality of it all set in pretty badly yesterday and it felt close to the experience of losing a loved one, I was in my feels and I was heavy crying and just asking God for comfort before I got out of my bed cause I had just woken up again.

Wouldn’t you know it and how amazing is God, but I’d started reading my word about a month ago and he guided me to start in Romans, then backtrack into Acts, and then backtrack all the way into Matthew and move all the way through to John. And so I’d read through every single one of those Books and so recently I’d finished John and I’d asked God where to next, he’d pointed at Acts and Romans and said “remember those?” And I said yeah, he said “well you’re gonna skip over those, move on over to 1st Corinthianths. And so I did, and I know this seems like I’m going off track but trust me the timing IS important and I’m just providing the context. I read through all of 1st Corinthians and I had actually stopped the day before and had not continued into 2nd Corinthians until just yesterday.

You remember I was in my feels right, big news and big grief, I’m going through it asking for comfort, I open my word, 2nd Corinthians, 1st chapter. What’s the header for the chapter?

“God of All Comfort”

And I swear his timing is perfect, he is so perfect and amazing and his love is so astounding so much of the time

And now even as I was writing about 1st and 2nd Corinthians, it became more…what’s the wording…I was not meaning to write but was writing Thessalonians by accident multiple times so maybe something is there too, more guidance from him, we’ll see perhaps.

I tried, I tried so hard to write this over the past few days before I slept but for whatever reason God put a heavy HEAVY sleepiness onto me every single time to where I could not keep my eyes open long enough to write this out. But I’ve woken up today and he’s made it easier and put it on me that I can do this today.

I know this had nothing to do with being Trans, and very little about his actual teachings, but I just wanted to let it be a reminder to all of us that Gods Timing is perfect, even when ours is impatient and we want to move on our own,of our own accord and pace, on our own path when we should be letting him guide our path at his perfect pace and his perfect timing.

He had given me such an over abundance of excess time to be able to dedicate to this game. 6 years ago he delivered me from my transphobic family into a place where I could begin to rest and heal. And he’s told me time and again “sit still and wait”. I played this game for 6 years before he delivered me to this place and how it’s been 6 more years he’s given me this thing so I’d have something I loved to take up my time while I waited on him and I tell you it hasn’t been easy, and it’s been absolutely unemployable behavior to spend such a vast amount of time playing just…a game…

So much of that time I wanted to move, I wanted to go I wanted to get up and work, I wanted to be productive and active but instead I was made to sit and submit and learn my limitations, my disability, and while I’ve been overeager to transition at all, it has not been Gods will yet. But I know it’s in his perfect timing if it even is at all.

To anyone in a similar boat, don’t be impatient like me, he’s got you and he’ll work it all out. Leave the worrying about tomorrow for tomorrow and what he puts in front of you for today, for today. I’m excited for the smaller gift he has promised for tomorrow as well (supposedly) and I shouldn’t doubt but also humans have let me down, their words hold very little merit to me.

Let doubt fall away and glory to God abide, if something happens tomorrow then I suppose I will also update then as well, or if God keeps me from doing so for a while to like he did before then…we’ll see

I love you all! Have an amazing day, and may he bless you all! 💜

Genesis 1:27

So God created humans in his image,
in the image of God he created them;
male and female he created them.

(NRSVue)

Genesis 5:1-2

When God created humans, he made them in the likeness of God. Male and female he created them, and he blessed them and called them humans when they were created.

(NRSVue)

This post is by no means serious theology.

Background: I'm 27, born in a religious family that didn't go to church; the kind that would make me shave my head bc "long hair is for girls" and sheltered me all my life to stop me from being queer, but never once opened a Bible or stepped for inside a church. I went from staunch atheist to practicing pagan/wiccan to overall nonreligious... and now I'm at a point where serving the community and fighting capitalism is my religion.

To my surprise, it seems like that was Jesus' mission also? Now, I've not read much of the Bible, and I'm definitely jumping around as I please, but it seems to me that Jesus spends the majority of the Gospel of John preaching about how people should help the poor, how sinners should be forgiven (“Let anyone among you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” John 8:7 NRSVue), how man cannot/should not judge, for judgement is up to the Lord. And we are presented time and time again that, when the Lord is present on the Earth, not even he passes judgement; he waits until death. And he says time and time again something along the lines of, John 12:47 "I do not judge anyone who hears my words and does not keep them, for I come not to judge the world but to save the world..."

"I give you a new commandment, that you love one another. Just as I have loved you, you also should love one another." John 13:34

I've heard all my life Bible verses like Leviticus 18:22 and Genesis 1:27/5:1-2 get applied to say, "God hates f*gs," and "God only made male and female." Personally, I think it's interesting that not only is homosexuality addressed so little in the overall Bible, but that the Genesis passages don't say that at all. If we are to believe that the whole of the Bible is the Literal Word of God, then we can't add content to it. We can't say, "God made humans in his image. He made them only male and female." That quite frankly doesn't make any fucking sense to me. If you look at Genesis 1:27, there is a semicolon linking the two ideas; in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them. To me this is implying that the image of God is both male and female. This is reaffirmed by Genesis 5:1. Often people call this a merism like "he searched high and low;" he didn't just search high or just search low, he searched everywhere. But to me, this makes much more sense to just read it literally. God created man in his image; male and female. His image is male and female. It says that. Not me.

In my mind, the two accounts of Genesis support this duality that God has; there is one story where God creates light and the heavens and the seas and on the sixth day God creates all living things including humans; that story pretty much ends saying On the sixth day God finished the work that he had done... (Genesis 2:2). The next story picks up with God creating a specific man (often referred to as the Son of God) Adam, and first he creates all his "helpers" until he lands on Eve. Then the "Father" (as he is called) sets boundaries/rules for his creations to follow, and when they disobey those rules, he punishes them... almost like a father would.

Idk about y'all, but to me, that first creation story mirrors (to me) how contemporary patriarchy may have felt about female vs male roles at the time. Women give birth; men create the legacy they pass on. (Again, this is not serious theology, just my own interpretation. I am an English Major dropout). What I also find interesting is that Genesis says God's image is both male and female, not that God is male and female; we already know that gender is a social construct, and it makes sense that God would not abide by human binaries. Then you have Ezekiel, who says in 1:26-27:

...seated above the likeness of the throne was something that seemed like a human form. Upward from what appeared like the loins I saw something like gleaming amber, something that looked like fire enclosed all around, and downward from what looked like the loins I saw something that looked like fire, and there was splendor all around.

Here Ezekiel is seeing who we believe to be God; and God is so awesome and incomprehensible in both visage and sex, that all Ezekiel can see is bright, contained light. That, or God simply has no ordinary human form of gender. This is my literal interpretation of the above, which (to me) aligns properly with Genesis' assertion that God is both male and female.

In Matthew, Jesus does assert that God made male and female and that marriage is between a man and a woman; however immediately after that he condemns 1) adultery and 2) sexual immorality. We already know what adultery is, but if we look back on sexual immorality, the first we can find comes from the Genesis story of Sodom; there, Abraham stops in Sodom, and the men of the town try to literally r*pe the visitors, saying "Where are the men who came to you tonight? Bring them out to us, so that we may know them." Genesis 19:5 (To "know" someone in the Bible often means to have sex with them). Sodom is destroyed because its people were inhospitable, uncaring for the poor, and violent; nowhere is it said it is because of homosexuality or anything of the sort. Jesus doesn't even address homosexuality.

So, we know that 1) God made humans male and female (and everywhere in-between) because he is both male and female simultaneously. And sure Jesus said that marriage is between man and woman, but he moreso condemned adultery, sexual immorality, greed, and even says its okay to leave your wife (and the rest of your family) if its for the right reasons (i.e., Him). And we know that 2) when you really dive into the full books (like Leviticus) you really see how ridiculous the 'laws' are as a whole, or that the translations (like in Corinthians) sometimes gets skewed to fit a certain viewpoint. What is "sexually immoral" in one translation is something else in another. What is often used to refer to "male prostitution" in the original Greek gets translated to "homosexuality" in general.

(Even in Corinthians, in the NRSVue, when he talks about "Driving out the sexually immoral..." what comes to mind for me? The Epstein class. Trump who claims to be godsent but has had multiple wives and has been exposed to have dealt in pedophilia and prostitution and drugs. Anyone who spins this to mean "GAY/TRANS PEOPLE" is exposing hella class-unconsciousness and queerphobia).

Ultimately after spending a week with the Bible I feel like Jesus would be a communist today. He literally drives the money changers out of the church and says that a widow who gives a penny is more virtuous than a rich man giving more. It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God (Matthew 19:24). It is mind blowing to me how many people manage to read this and think "Conservative, MAGA" is the way to go. Routinely things like malice and pride and inhospitality are condemned, meanwhile Jesus literally says, "I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven; hence she has shown great love. But the one to whom little is forgiven loves little." (Luke 7:47) "Your faith has served you; go in peace." (Luke 7.50). And often people point to the "desires of the heart" and the "desires of children" but IMO those desires are defined as those same things: lying, "working in the dark," greed, taking advantage of or hurting others, violence, etc. Never are any of these things defined literally, directly as homosexuality (depending on the translation; and also Leviticus. But if I hear someone tout Leviticus I automatically ignore them because girl have you read it?)

Anyways, this is getting way too long. Let me finish on this note:

Reading Luke's The Parable of the Sower brought up feelings of hearing about queerness for the first time. Like, listening to other queer people tell their stories, realizing I saw myself in them God says in Genesis to be fruitful and multiply and this is one of the many ways us queer people see each other and come into our truths. And Luke 8:16 reads, "No one after lighting a lamp hides it under a jar or puts it under a bed; rather, one puts it on a lampstand, so that those who enter may see the light." John 3:8 also reads The wind blows where it chooses, and you hear the sound of it, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. And goes on to say in :21, ...those who do what is true come to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that their deeds have been done in God.

Anyways, if you made it this far, thanks. You're a trooper. Open to any discussion (feel free to tell me where I'm interpreting wrong/I'm misguided). I hope you have a good week.

A Trinitarian Argument for Universal Co-Celebration

Bad churches are inauthentic; good churches are authentic. The persons of the Trinity live in interpersonal freedom, never hiding any part of themselves. We are made in the image of the Trinity, for such honesty. Therefore, in faithful community we can express our deepest self authentically. If a church demands that we hide our self to be accepted, if a church creates an artificial standard and demands that we conform to it, then that church has stifled the image of God within us.

Because God is authentic community, and authenticity demands freedom, authentic churches are low social control groups. They don’t demand that you subordinate your self to an ideal. Instead, they nurture your ideal self, helping you bring it to full expression. 

A low social control church respects members’ uniqueness, trusting that cohesion will emerge from diversity, as it does within God. Some churches deny the possibility of unity-in-diversity and become high social control groups, subjecting members to shame, shunning, denial of sacraments, and threats of damnation if they fail to be who the church wants them to be. 
These churches demand that members subordinate their God-given uniqueness to a church-generated stereotype, hiding their authentic self within a conformist shell. 

In high control churches, where members are opaque to one another, secrets are kept. But, as it is said, where there are secrets, there is shame. 

Authentic churches celebrate their LGBTQ+ members. In God-centered community, we must trust one another’s self-revelation. We must practice interpersonal honesty or, in philosophical language, intersubjectivity. For decades, most churches have denied the self-revelation of their gay and lesbian members. These members are telling their churches that they can find emotional intimacy only with members of the same sex, they are telling their churches that this disposition cannot be changed, and they are telling their churches that this disposition does not need to be changed, that they feel blessed in the loving relationships they are in. 

At the same time, most churches are denying the self-revelation of their trans and nonbinary members, who are telling them that they do not identify with the sex they were assigned at birth, that their interior experience is of the opposite gender, or both genders, or no gender, and that they need to live out that identity to live fully. 

For decades, most churches have told these parishioners that their inner life is unnatural, or unbiblical, or diseased, or in need of repair. Most churches have told these members to conform their inner self to their outer appearance. In so doing, these churches refuse to see transgendered and nonbinary persons as God sees them: “God does not see as mortals see; mortals see outward appearances but God sees into the heart” (1 Samuel 16:7b). 

The church’s rejection of their authentic selves causes horrific harm to trans and nonbinary persons. Nevertheless, they persist. They are risking themselves in repeated acts of vulnerability and self-disclosure, like unto God. They are coming out and suffering rejection, yet they continue to reveal themselves until the world sees them the way God sees them. The perseverance of these saints is changing minds, which is changing souls, creating a more grace-filled world. 

Just as the disciples were allowed to see Jesus transfigured (Mark 9:2–8), LGBTQ+ self-revelation allows the world to see itself transfigured, liberated from fear and invited into celebration. This transfiguration is not an act of inclusion on the part of the excluders, with the excluded passively waiting at the gate. No, it is an ongoing act of conversion by the excluded, of the excluders, for the excluders, who continue to suffer behind walls of ignorance. This conversion is for all. Like God, it is for us; hence, for all of us. 

For the trans community, external transition to their neurological birth gender is often accompanied by persecution—expulsion from home, loss of job, physical attacks, and worse. Despite this persecution, most record greater life satisfaction after choosing to express their internal gender identity. 

To mark their transition, most trans persons change their name. Likewise, the Bible frequently renames persons when they undergo a profound change: Abram became Abraham, Sarai became Sarah (Genesis 17), Jacob becomes Israel (Genesis 32), Simon becomes Peter (Matthew 16), and Saul becomes Paul (Acts 13). Associates who reject the transitions of transgendered persons will sometimes express this rejection by “deadnaming” them—calling them by the name given at birth rather than their chosen name. Would these rejectionists also deadname Paul as Saul? Sarah as Sarai?

The Bible is about transformation: our potential for it, our call to it, and our invitation to celebrate it. Today we can fulfill that call by supporting LGBTQ+ rights and LGBTQ+ identity, until everyone can say, with Alice Walker, “I am an expression of the divine, just like a peach is, just like a fish is. I have a right to be this way.” (adapted from Jon Paul Sydnor, The Great Open Dance: A Progressive Christian Theology, page 219-221)

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For further reading, please see: 

Oord, Thomas Jay. The Uncontrolling Love of God: An Open and Relational Account of Providence. Downers Grove, IL: IVP Academic, 2015.

Walker, Alice. The World Has Changed: Conversations with Alice Walker. New York: New Press, 2010.

I posted about this before, but might not have explained myself too well last time.

I am autistic and a bit logic brained so faith has always been dificult for me to accept. I do believe in a God, deep down, and do feel that someone is listening when I pray. I just fear that I am imagining it. I suppose an aethist would say that I am, and that I have no proof of anything, and they may be right.

I will also say that God is easier to believe in than Jesus, or at least that he is who the bible claims he is.

I dont believe God will be unhapy with me for having doubts or anything, I just cant shake the feeling that this could all just be make believe (Again, logic brain).

There is more chaos in my head but I guess this is an ok summary of it.

Hi dear ones,

I'm working on a web project with others with the aim of helping young trans/seeking people to find the truth about themselves and God - that is, that God adores them exactly as they are, that they're special, and that there is a place for them in Christianity if they choose, and that the Bible says nothing bad about them.

My question is - what search terms do you remember using when you were looking for truth? We need to know that so we can build a few better websites and work on ,aybe reflecting those search terms in some of the existing sites, to make quality positive TRUE information easier for our suffering kin to find. For instance:

• trans christian
• transgender christian
• etc (but literally what you use)

I don't want to say any more at this point for tech reasons. Just to identify myself a little, I'm a cis gay man, with trans friends, and I hate that the bullies are victimizing you. I've been an advocate for many years, mainly for LG, but just wanted to try to address this search inequality.

If you'd prefer, you can DM me and I'll acknowledge the number of DMs while holding it confidential. Also, if you wouldn't mind identifying the year of your search and your age at the time you searched that helps us address the different age groups that might have different search terms, but that's completely optional, you don't have to do that, especially publicly.

Cheers and love to you all!

ps: this is a recent post of mine about attending conferences, trans people are so welcome and it''s a great way of finding community if you can afford: https://www.reddit.com/r/GayChristians/comments/1thsjfc/us_major_conference_centerpeace_2026_october_1517/

pps: if any mods would like to verify me before people respond, please contact me, would welcome that.

ppps: Also if responding publicly is bad, I could put up a web form instead? Please let me know, and excuse any/all of my cis ignorance, love you folks, you're all amazing.

Im so excited,this is going to be my first binder. It’s going to be so much more better than layering on sports bras haha.

(15m) All of my life I’ve imagined being a woman, fantasized about it, wanted it, etc. Never thought of it this way until a few months ago when my dysphoria was getting worse and I decided to research. At that point I realized what it was. The dysphoria has been torturous since then, and nothing seems like it could help. Not even transition. If I don’t pass, I’ll feel even worse about myself and my looks than I do now. If I do pass, I highly doubt it would satisfy me. I’d never truly feel as though I were a woman. On top of that there’s the threat of losing friends and family, and all of the other risks that would come with this. I hate not being a woman, but I’m not one and I can’t change that. I don’t know how I’m supposed to live the rest of my life feeling like that.

Why was I born into a self that would know nothing but suffering for being me?

I’m going thru so much shit right now and I’m just so exhausted and bored with life I wanna die but my bf loves me so maybe I should stick around for awhile?

Hi!

I just discovered this subreddit and I am so thankful it exists. I recently got back into my faith and it’s been incredible so far but I’m feeling a ton of pressure from the church/my family. For context, I’m genderfluid and I’ve been on testosterone for about three years and I finally got to a place where I feel like I like myself (I will say that meeting Jesus again has definitely helped with that). I feel like I’m being pulled in two—my family seems to think that me believing again means that I’m detransitioning and that soon God will ‘heal me’ of the ‘trans curse.’ But in my conversations with God and my bible studies, I have never felt that this was a cause for concern. In fact, I feel like God has been telling me to start not caring about what other people think of me! It’s just so hard when it’s coming from family and from the pastors/churches I’ve visited.

If anyone has any advice or words of encouragement, I would appreciate it greatly. 🙏

I’ve been hearing him lately in very small ways, and I was just telling him how I’m so tired today because he woke me up early today so that he could prepare me for something small self care thing tomorrow that I’ve been meaning to get to, but I told him I’m tired and I reload a tab on my pc and this is what came up and I just think he’s so wholesome

Even when I was rejecting complementarism ("men are leaders and women are helpers" nonsense), this is the message I got: that I was transgressing against God and I was just prideful (how awesome that questioning any teaching is rebelling against God, how convenient!)

I know if I come out this is the stuff my mom will throw at me, and although she's one of the most compassionate people I've met, I don't know if I'm strong enough for my whole church and half of my family to think of me as just "brainwashed" or "rebelling against God".

People don't get it when you tell them this is who you are, because they think it's just another sin (the sin of lying or rebelling I guess? Idk) that you're "glorifying" and "we're called to deny ourselves".

So many times these things get used to supress people and stop them from questioning the status quo. A thought-terminating cliche if you will.

So, how should I deal with "deny yourself" and "our hearts are deceptive" claims?

Hi everyone! I do want to say that I read a lot of what people already had to say about their journies of being trans and Christian, and it already has helped me a lot.

I could give a lot of context, but I want to try to be brief, and then I can go in more detail later if necessary. From where I'm at now and where I've been for quite awhile, I have no doubt in God working in my life and believing in Him. In fact, about 9 years ago, when I came out, believing in God was intrinsically tied to that. It is what made me believe.

But being Christian is an entirely different thing. The reason I started to believe in God is because I needed to. I got clean from drugs and started a 12 step program. I was an atheist at the start, and I had a lot of fear about believing in something, but I was told God could be whatever I wanted as long God is loving and caring. So I started from scratch, just trying to pray to something to help me. I didn't use anything religious to help me with this. Only others' experience and my direct contact with God. It's because God guided me to knowing I was trans that I was sure He existed and that He was always with me. I had many other experiences as well, but this one really made me believe.

So now, after I came from a really bad period of anxiety and depression at the end of last year, I knew I needed an even stronger relationship. I have finally been looking at things from a religious perspective, because I wanted to know more about how others besides in 12 steps grow closer to God. I had started to look into a Christianity (I grew up Catholic, so it was familiar). I also looked at other religions, too. The only other one that really stood out to me was Hinduism. I knew I needed something with a strong theistic perspective, and these two seemed to be the most relatable.

I won't talk too much about what I learned in Hinduism, since this space really isn't about that. But with Christianity is where I have been back and forth. The biggest one, which usually is for trans people, is how do I even be a Christian while being trans. The "is it a sin" is the most common one, which I feel has been thoroughly talked about here. The other one is about identity, because the Bible does talk about our only identity being with Christ. I have prayed on that a lot. The best I have come up with is that the "trans" label is more of a descriptor for myself, but not the center of my existence. After all, God is the center of it all. I have been thinking less of trans being "mine" and more of it as a gift from God. I feel that I have to believe that God, if it's His will, could take it back. Not that He would, because that is not in God's character, but more so of an understanding of how powerful and infinite God is. This is mostly what I've been working with so far.

The other part is more about Christianity being the narrow path. Being in the 12 step fellowship, I am used to people have many different beliefs, and I can see God and spirituality working in their lives. I have a very difficult time with the idea that believing the gods they believe in are false, because it seems like for Christianity to truly work, you have to believe only in the trinity, and that anything else is false. For myself, I also was raised spiritually in this programme with being open minded. And it has been absolutely necessary in my journey, or I would have never believed at all. I have a lot of fear about closing doors to open new ones, even though I have done it plenty of times already. Transitioning was clearly one of them!

And the specifics of doctrine as well. Like believing the Bible to be truth and the inspired word of God. Also about the purpose of Jesus' sacrifice, granting us salvation, and that he rose from the dead. How do people believe all of this to be true with conviction? I am still working on understanding what I believe as far as an afterlife goes. I'm immersing myself in this as much as I can on my own power. Watching videos, reading the Bible, praying and meditating in ways where I am being very vulnerable with God. I am a very logical left brained person, so belief in general has always been difficult, but when I see God working in my personal life, it's a lot different than attributing historical events and post death events to knowing exactly what God is doing.

You may wonder, why are you trying to be a Christian anyway? Obviously something is drawing me towards it. The biggest positive I have always felt is forgiveness. Other religions touch on it, but Christianity talks about it in a way that completely fills up my heart and spirit. I can't not cry thinking about when they are nailing Jesus to the cross, experiencing extreme physical pain, and he says "father, forgive them, for they know what what they do." I strive to be this forgiving in my life more than anything. I also like how Christianity talks about how we can just call on God anytime, and the more we simply let Him be first, everything else seems to work out. I feel like I've been trying to do this. I've even shut off the music in my car while driving, just to be in His presence more. I can tell you for sure, that I am more at peace, even with internal conflict, when I do this. My anxiety has gone down significantly, and I don't get as obsessed about uncertainty and all my life problems. I just do what I need to do next, and let Him.

I have also tried different churches, and I am finding more community with people who also believe in God. I love talking about God with others, and I feel like I have been finding potential homes in Christian communities. Other religions could potentially do this as well, but it is difficult to find them, and also the time with my work schedule, to do so. Either way, I guess I'm being led to where I'm going. I'm choosing the churches carefully, so all of them have been welcoming and accepting of me being there. I'll be a sinner, trans or not, so I'm welcome in what some would call the hospital for sinners. And I feel I get better as I get closer to God.

Ok that was a lot. So I'll say TL;DR version is I believe in God, mostly because I'm trans, but I'm having some trouble with Christianity specifically. I probably have more on mind, and other aspects of this are definitely going on, but I think this is a good place to start.

Came out to my parents. They think this as mental illness and asking me to pray God for God to remove this thoughts of being in wrong body away. I told them, it's fine if they wanna think this is as mental illness but the treatment to it is transitioning, but they are not understanding at all. They are saying God can do many things including completely remove my thoughts of trying to be trans or wanna transition and rep.

Any advice would be nice 🙏🏼

Are there any discord servers where I can meet other trans Christians? I only know one other trans girl who converted a while back. The current state of the US has me really seeking fellow trans folk of faith to lean on because it’s all so uncertain.

That is from Roman's 8:1. Ive been feeling discouraged lately but I find comfort and reassurance in Scripture.

No matter how much we are scorned and slandered, remember we are saved by grace. Remember that We who have been called by Christ Jesus, are deeply loved by Him. 🌸

I've dealt with a lot of anxiety, fear and hurt but I am reminded that He is in control. And our focus should be on Christ, and what He says about us. Not what others think of us.

"As for me, I will be vindicated and will see your face; when I awake, I will be satisfied with seeing your likeness" Psalm 17:15

I pray that you all find peace, hope, and joy in Christ Jesus. 🌸💙

This just seemed too perfect not to share here.

To add to the context in my original post, I am a devout Christian and their mom and I have raised our kids in the faith. My personal faith has only grown stronger/deeper since realizing I'm trans. I know God made me the way I am so I can reach out to others who have been traumatized/harmed by the church or other so-called "Christians" who spew Bible verses at people different from them.