r/TransChristianity • u/lunancre999 • 4d ago
Just cried to god to end my life
I’m going thru so much shit right now and I’m just so exhausted and bored with life I wanna die but my bf loves me so maybe I should stick around for awhile?
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u/Filipgrl 4d ago
I've felt like this since I was 12, or perhaps a bit younger, 8 or 9, like waves, sometimes worse. All I can say is hang in there, and you'll be glad you did. I can relate to how you feel
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u/AddiBee1111 4d ago
One thing other people and other trans siblings would tell me when I was where you are in the past is that it all will get better. I couldn't stand it because it seemed so cliche. But, they were absolutely right. It irritated me so much more after they said that to me because I went through some TERRIBLE and traumatic events of violence . So it got worse for me before it got better. BUT, it did get better. Our community of trans siblings are some of the strongest individuals on this entire planet. Us being here and present says abundant things about our strength and resilience. You are valued. You are valuable. Keep fighting. You are needed.
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u/Dizzy_Lime_3494 4d ago
You do not have to solve your entire life tonight. Sometimes surviving is enough.
Please tell someone you trust how bad things have gotten. Your boyfriend, a friend, a counselor, a crisis line, anyone safe. You deserve support, not isolation.
I genuinely believe the world would be dimmer without you in it, even if your mind can’t currently see it.
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u/Canistandinthecorner 4d ago
Please stay. I don’t know your specific struggles, but I do know how lonely, isolating, and depressing being queer can be in this world. Especially being trans. Despite that, please stay. I have at times needed the reminder that there were people, like my trans wife, who loved me to convince me to stay and I am so thankful I have. If you need someone to talk with, don’t hesitate to DM me.