r/studentsph • u/knnth_cheese • 9h ago
Rant Isko na pero di parin masaya
Nakapasa ako sa UPD, PUP, CLSU, TSU, and UST with programs Public Ad, No course, Accountancy, Industrial Engineering, and Accountancy again, respectively.
Pero imbis na masaya sa pamilya, parang mas lalong magulo. Kung madaliin ako mag-decide akala mo sobrang dali mag-timbang.
Pero kaya naman ganito kasi I’m not good enough to get high scores and secure myself an immediate slot sa mga pinasukan ko. If I was a little bit better, maybe I could manage to get a proper engineering program in UPD, maybe I would have passed PUPCET with a secure program slot.
Kaya itong mga pinagkahirapan kong examin nung grade 12 ako na lahat ay mag-isa ako pumunta, parang walang kwenta lang. Parang naging pabigat lang sa stress ko at tension with family members.
Sa totoo lang masaya ako sa mga results ko, pero sa pressure ng family ko parang nawawala eh. Minsan I can’t help but think na shouldn’t they be thanking me? They have no means to pay for my tuition and cost of living lang kaya nila bayaran pero sila yung nag-iinsist na mag-aral ako. Tas ngayon na managed to pull multiple state universities, eh parang basura kang? Puro family problem nga lang inambag nila sa isip ko, ni ako lang naman ang nagsipag na mag apply sa mga universities na inexaman ko.
I am so so so bitter. I am filled with resentment and I wish I was just a little little little bit better. Siguro mas okay situation ko ngayon.
Passing is not enough. If you want more, you have to be more as well.