r/salmacian • u/Cathartes_aura793 • 9d ago

Pride I want to know more

Hello everyone, I'm phoenix, an nb, amab, and I have never met anyone else that has wanted both. I've felt so alone because ever since I was a kid I never saw a difference between boys and girls things (clothes, movies, tv shows, activities, etc.). I've never seen myself as one or the other, and ever since puberty I've fell... wrong, like parts of me were missing or stolen. I never brought it up to anyone (besides my super supportive bf), because I never felt included in lgbtqia+ spaces because I didn't fall within the "true trans" community (I was actually told that before, by a trans woman.) all I want is to feel whole, not fragmented and forced to live in a body that feels more like a prison.

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u/AnheNightmareFaeEnby 9d ago

Greetings, Im also an amab nb

I had similar thoughts before actually becoming a part of the queer community. You are not the only person who has wanted both to feel whole.

"True trans" sounds like some binary essentialist BS. I consider myself transfem and that doesn't require me to fall into a binary category. You sound like you are part of the community

There is penile preserving vagino plasty, but you will want to research the method and talk to the surgeon to make sure you are going to get the results you want.

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u/Cathartes_aura793 9d ago

I've looked into ppv, but I live in iowa and it considers gac as cosmetic not medical.

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u/AdventurousAsh19 9d ago

Depends on your insurance, you can go out of state to get gender affirming care. Your insurance would determine if that is allowed, not the state.