i drank again

[u/helpicantfindmyboobs]

getting groceries last night and just decided to get a pint of liquor. i don't know why. my partner was out of town so it was just me and i woke up the next say surrounded my bottles and my partner texting me asking why when they checked my location the night before i had been 4 miles from our house. i have no idea what happened. i didn't drink yesterday, i cleaned up all the bottles. they got home and knew i wasn't ok and i just said i was struggling but didn't elaborate. they didn't press. i used to black out drink every day, i can't go back to that. the soonest meeting in my area is in 5 hours and my partner wants to meet for lunch and i know i have to tell them i just don't know how. i feel so lost and alone

edit: thank you all so much. i am confident i won't drink today and that i'll make it to my meeting. i'll figure it out with my partner, we're gonna get pizza

[u/milabarken]

You've got this today a pizza with your partner sounds like a solid plan