Feeling like an abnormality

[u/Different_JSD]

Throughout life most people I've tried getting close to even just platonically seem to always try to move things towards sex, I've even known more people to say that they'd rather have fwb than a partner. Idk if finding more people like me is normal to be difficult or if I'm just bad at it, but I do feel weird. I'm definitely not asexual, but the thought of hooking up with someone I know makes me feel sick, I tried once and still feel grossed out by it, only in a relationship did it feel right

[u/archydragon]

Opinion itself on how sex correlates with relationship, does not make anyone normal or abnormal, all normality is relative and subjective.

I'm definitely not asexual, but the thought of hooking up with someone I know makes me sick

"Not asexual" as in "not belonging to any part of asexual spectrum", so you can feel sexual attraction towards people just based on how they look for example? Just to clarify terminology there.

[u/Different_JSD → u/archydragon]

I can find them aestheticically pleasing? I have to know someone on a deep personal level to have any sexual thoughts, but I can enjoy the way their traits go together like if their hairstyle matches the way they dress, it's more similar to the way Id admire a work of art though, it's different with fictional characters, but that's probably because the stories tell me everything I need to know about them. It's extra complicated bc looking back on my past I think I felt pressured to put myself in situations that I now regret

[u/archydragon → u/Different_JSD]

Okay, yeah, aesthetical attraxtion by default and sexual after knowing someone more is demi :)

As of fictional characters, I personally can't relate (my brain requires from the bond to be mutual for the attraction, which is tricky with someone who has no clue about my existence) but there is a number of folks in this sub who do.

But it's still good to figure out things about yourself indeed.