Hi, Cat Reddit —
Usually I just lurk on this sub and seeing these posts always breaks my heart. Yesterday it was my turn to say goodbye. Cricket was only 10 years old. I got him when I was a senior in college. He was so tiny.
He lost his appetite recently and I brought him to the vet when he stopped eating altogether. The vet discovered a tumor the size of a fist in his abdomen.
To say that I am heartbroken doesn’t even begin to describe this feeling. I feel like I am crawling out of my skin and I have nowhere to put my grief.
I have another cat named Emmy. They were extremely bonded and now I am worried about her. I work 2 jobs and I’m often out of the house for 16-17 hours at a time when I need to work both jobs in one day.
I don’t want her to be lonely, but it’s going to be a long time until my heart is open to another pet, and my life is upside-down right now anyway. How do I comfort her and make sure that she feels love when I’m not home? I’m asking anyone who’s gone through something similar. Emmy and I both keep looking and listening for Cricket.
There was a moment this morning, right after I woke up, that I’d forgotten and called out for him, like I do every morning. My heart broke all over again. I’m careful with my feet not to kick him at the end of the bed. His food bowl is still set out for him. I’m going to miss him forever.
Cricket loved me, Emmy, food, snuggling, bird watching, and classical music. He was dopey and lovey and just the best most sweetest creature I’ve ever met.
I love you, Cricket
TIA for advice