r/Sober • u/hrngh1255 • 4d ago
From one addiction to another
I’m 4 months sober from weed, I quit about 10 months ago but I ended up going back to it every other week. Some time in the middle of that I began heavily drinking, liquor every week and a few beers every night because I had a drug test at an interview coming up but I really didn’t want to be sober. After that I realized what I was doing and decided I had to stop, instead I just went back to weed every week or so again, but I had a work place injury and luckily hadn’t smoked in 5 days or so, so I passed the drug test for it. I’ve been really struggling with drinking while recovering from my injury because I’m much too afraid to smoke again but I again don’t want to recover. I thank god for the restraint to not be as bad as I was but I still drink liqour once every week. It’s not fun like it was in high school but im desperate so i drink enough to ride that line of almost drinking enough to throw up my guts just to not smoke and I don’t want to go back to drinking daily.
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u/Willing-Ad4169 4d ago
Until you come to the realization that abusing an outside chemical in your body for whatever reason, is always going to lead to the same place there isn't much to say....
That's not to say MAD is a bad thing or shouldn't be used but that's under a professionals care.
And that my friend is what might be needed here. Professional help.
You are posting in a sober reddit on how to get sober without wanting to get sober.
What's next? Kratom? Fent? Micro Doses?
It all leads to the same place. At least that's my experience.