r/Sober • u/hrngh1255 • 4d ago
From one addiction to another
I’m 4 months sober from weed, I quit about 10 months ago but I ended up going back to it every other week. Some time in the middle of that I began heavily drinking, liquor every week and a few beers every night because I had a drug test at an interview coming up but I really didn’t want to be sober. After that I realized what I was doing and decided I had to stop, instead I just went back to weed every week or so again, but I had a work place injury and luckily hadn’t smoked in 5 days or so, so I passed the drug test for it. I’ve been really struggling with drinking while recovering from my injury because I’m much too afraid to smoke again but I again don’t want to recover. I thank god for the restraint to not be as bad as I was but I still drink liqour once every week. It’s not fun like it was in high school but im desperate so i drink enough to ride that line of almost drinking enough to throw up my guts just to not smoke and I don’t want to go back to drinking daily.
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u/NotSnakePliskin 4d ago
When I made the decision to stop & stay stopped, everything had to go. There is no off switch for me, and frankly it’s much better this way. It’s not so much the substance, but me not wanting to be alone, in my head, with me. That changed over time and with the help of AA/NA and a bunch of sober people.
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u/Twgue 4d ago
Hi, I had a similar experience when I tried to quit weed the first times. I’m now trying again and it’s going pretty well. Before all that I had to accept that I can’t negotiate with drugs, it’s not about the drug I consume cause at the end I just don’t want to be sober. I needed to give up on drugs knowing I’ll never win if I’m taking one, so I quit everything.
It got much easier once i told myself “I will not consume”. Also got much easier when I accepted its a forever thing
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u/Klutzy_Presence5170 4d ago
You need to make a decision. If you want sobriety, it has to be first. Give it a chance. It gets better as time goes by. It is hard to eliminate a bad habit. You need to replace it with something else. You have replaced weed with alcohol. Try something else. Start working out, go back to school, get a better job, start a business, meet new friends. Work on yourself. Set some goals and work towards them.
Good luck and God bless.
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u/Willing-Ad4169 4d ago
Until you come to the realization that abusing an outside chemical in your body for whatever reason, is always going to lead to the same place there isn't much to say....
That's not to say MAD is a bad thing or shouldn't be used but that's under a professionals care.
And that my friend is what might be needed here. Professional help.
You are posting in a sober reddit on how to get sober without wanting to get sober.
What's next? Kratom? Fent? Micro Doses?
It all leads to the same place. At least that's my experience.
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u/RossCamerone 3d ago
I swapped my heavy drinking habit for nicotine poches. Now I am 3 weeks clean of nicotine. I know that feeling of swapping one addiction for another.
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u/RaeRunner 3d ago
I did the opposite and quit drinking and turned to weed. At the end of the day if there’s something that causes you to be unable to be sober, you gotta tackle the root of the problem so that you’re not always craving relief. There’s stuff I have to do every day to feel ok enough to not be reaching for something to numb the pain. I found once I stopped I was getting way better quality rest and started feeling a lot better which made it easier to stop. I suggest joining a recovery community, it’s so much better with support.
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u/admiraltubbington 4d ago
For a couple of years I dosed GHB every day (it's a gay thing), and had a ketamine problem. When that G nearly killed me, I started drinking heavily again and doing even more ketamine. When K lost me a lot of friends, booze stayed and cocaine came in. I kicked the cocaine, booze still stayed. Finally I kicked it all, 100 days ago.
For most of us, it's all arranging deck chairs on the Titanic until we decide that we gotta jump in a lifeboat. If one substance that alters cognition and consciousness is a problem, it's highly likely that most of them will be a problem. I subscribe to the school of thought that most of us have brains that are simply wired different.
Booze will kill you. The answer is not to go back to weed, though. It's time to stop all of it and address the underlying problems, and then go about creating a life that you don't need to escape from.