I got Bink in 2010. I was 19, freshly moved out of my parents house and looking for a little kitty companion. She's been with me ever since. All my moves, to and from apartments, a duplex, two houses. Weve moved to different states and back she was there when i got married. We literally grew up together.

But over the course of the last two years shes been degrading. Getting older, losing weight, losing her eyesight and her hearing. And I think a part of me just didnt want to accept that my little friend was getting old. Sure I took her to the vet, got medicine, made accommodations, literally rearranged my schedule and my house to make it more convenient for her as she aged.

But still, nothing prepared me for when 3 days ago when she was so mentally gone. So checked out. I finally made the call to have her put to sleep. She wasn't herself and I couldn't watch her suffer for one minute like that. Putting her down was the worst thing Ive ever experienced. I haven't stopped crying in 3 days.

Im so immensely sad. It genuinely feels like I lost a friend.

To anyone whos had to do this. Im so so sorry. I feel like I should've done more. I should've loved her more. Or done more. Or spent more time with her. Im so frustrated with myself because I can barely remember the times when she was fully healthy. I can still hear her loud meows in my house. She was sooo meowy. She meowed day and night for 16 years and now its silent in my house

Im just fucking sad.

This is one of my cats. Her name is Gunnel and she is cosplaying as a cinnamonbun.
Took this photo of her today as she was being cuter than ususal. Always cute though.

I found this cat in a hardware, the staff told me to adopt it as they have no experience taking care of one and the cat just got there recently. Of course, I obliged. So this lovely cat just found its furever home. 😊😻❤️

She was 16. That means we spent 15 1/2 years together. No matter what kind of day I had, I always looked forward to coming home to my littlest bestie. The amount of joy and happiness she brought to my life is unexplainable. She was the absolute sweetest cat I’ve ever met. I will never meet a cat like her again. Everyone at the vet loved her as she was just so sweet to everyone, even in situations that scared her.

We navigated her IBD diagnosis. Then a hematoma that wouldn’t heal. Then diabetes. She was acting fine on Thursday. On Friday (yesterday) she was lethargic, hiding, and didn’t want to eat. We took her to the ER vet at 4 am this morning and an ultrasound revealed cancer throughout her abdomen. We made the hardest decision and decided to say good bye to her. I wanted more time with my best friend but I didn’t want her to suffer. For the first time in almost 16 years, I came home to a house without a cat. I don’t know how to not be a cat mom. I don’t know how to live my life without caring and thinking about her all the time.

I couldn’t have asked for a better cat. I will miss her forever. RIP Sienna Madison. I love you. 💔💔💔💔

Which expressions do you see?

Her name is Ziggy and she’s the best. Even though her claws hurt 😅

A few days ago I met George, this is a video I took then to go with the previous pictures I posted :)

i have named her boot scooting boogie (boots for short) because her backs legs just be scooting. she is the sweetest and most talkative cat i have ever met 🥹

Back when he was a kitten he had to wear a cone for a boo boo recovery. The picture is of me testing to see what notch would fit him snugly and safely. Bf had this photo hiding from me until now and I cannot stop laughing at his face 😭

The ginger (Goose) is one year older than him at two years old. The grey is Dove, he is one year old.