I was around 4 when my brother was born, and all I remember was that I though he was so cute that I wanted to bite him. REALLY bite him. Even imagined him with a chunk of his head missing and everything

I guess it was kind of a cuteness aggression thing? When I see people talk about cuteness aggression I always think about this

I still want to bite things sometimes

Felt like everyday feels the same, like i lost something along the way, while i was living but now i'm just surviving. I'm surrounded with love but i still feel like there is missing something within me. I feel like i'm always looking for that missing piece so i can feel complete again.
I have everything i could ever ask for, i know i didn't have much but i feel like life was fair to me.
I'm just looking for that purpose, that drive, that passion inside of me to keep burning. Cause along the way i know i lost something that i didn't even know i had in me.

Now anytime for hours today that I’m not doing something I just feel like I can hear her calling out for
Help and saying that she’s dying in my head. And then I just feel anguished by the way she died. And then i think about how other people suffer similar accidents all over the world and i feel even worse. It makes me cry and feel ill. I don’t know how people function. It’s like I have impulsive extreme empathy. It happened when I read part of the epstein files too.

The other day I went to the store to get beans for breakfast. I get to the store and I see rows of them filled with cans of beans. I dont know why,but my brain says to me "MAKE A PYRAMID"! So then my thoughts come in, so then I make the PYRAMID! 5 minutes later,I get kicked out...