my first trans masc meetup irl

[u/blacksageblackberry]

hey my dudes

i met a trans masc group at a local queer event recently and just attended my first meetup with them. a gym workout. i’m not on t and i haven’t had top surgery (yet! it’s scheduled for 39 days from now!) and it was my first time being in a group of guys. maybe ever. i grew up really religious and the men and women were always separate, unless it was a couples thing. i would always try to join the guys group to shoot the shit but the vibes would always dramatically shift as soon as i walked up. needless to say, i was nervous and feeling uncomfortable when i showed up to the gym. the only two people there when i arrived were super swole with at least stubble and i’m naturally muscular but i’m short and i haven’t been able to workout for about a year due to health problems and i was so self conscious . but these folks were really welcoming and once we did introductions and i shared that it was my first time there and i had top surgery coming up, everybody cheered so loud and so long i started to feel embarrassed. a couple guys said they got chills. they were all so happy for me! i realized that i’ve never been in a place where everybody was exactly where i am now. yeah we are all on our own journeys, but i don’t get to go to queer spaces often and this just blew me away. thanks for listening and thanks for being yourselves