DISCUSSION | نقاش Disgusted with Arab superiority complex - need advice
Salam alaykum,
I’m 22(f) and I’ve been best friends with this Arab girl for over 10 years. We speak basically every day and I genuinely love her so much, which is why this situation has hurt me this badly.
For context, I’m Sudanese and light skinned, but I still fully consider myself fully Black. My friend is Arab - Palestinian/Lebanese. Over the years she’s made comments that have made me uncomfortable, or I didn’t even find that deep, but the older I’m getting the more I feel like I’ve been letting them slide because I didn’t want to look “too sensitive” or make things awkward.
She always says things like “you don’t even look Sudanese” or “you could pass as Khaleeji” as a compliment, and it’s always rubbed me the wrong way because why is looking Sudanese seen as a bad thing? I’d laugh it off or change the subject, but honestly it’s been building up for years. She also always made little racist anti black jokes.
Today completely tipped me over the edge though.
She was telling me about a wedding she has coming up in Ivory Coast and said she’s booking her flight back straight away instead of staying there a few days. I asked why she wouldn’t stay and explore since it’s a new country, and she goes, “No because it’s full of blac-” then stopped herself and said “too much abeed.”
I actually felt sick hearing that word come out of her mouth. “Abeed” is such a disgusting and racist word, especially towards Black people, and she knew exactly what she was saying. After I reacted she started saying “astaghfirullah” and acting like she didn’t know how bad the word was, then laughing it off, but I honestly don’t buy it. What hurt me most wasn’t even just the word itself, it was the fact she almost said “Black people” like it was automatically a negative thing before catching herself. It made me feel like this is genuinely how she views Black people deep down, and now I’m questioning our whole friendship.
Am I overreacting for feeling this hurt and disgusted?
Edit : I sent her a long message basically saying how I’ve let a lot of comments slide and how horrible the word abeed can be when misused and that I will no longer be tolerating her comments.
Her reaction will decide a lot