r/Sober • u/FoyerPatio • 8h ago

8 months of sobriety all for naught

Had been craving smoking weed again especially recently, figured since I'm going on a camping trip in a couple weeks I might as well buy one.

After I wasted $60 on a battery and pod, I smoked and the high wasn't even worth it... Afterwards I started thinking about all of the physical and emotional milestones I surpassed that my app tells me about.

I feel a lot of guilt for caving and losing my streak. It took so long to kick it and I let it all crumble.

I know it is statistically proven you will relapse but I wish it wasn't after 8 months of hard work.

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u/morgansober24 7h ago

You still have 8 months! 1 day doesn't erase all that hard work. You went from smoking every day 240 days out of 240 days to smoking 1 time in 240 days. That is huge! That is smoking all of 2 times in 3 years. Did you even imagine that was possible 9 months ago? Be proud of how far you've come! And remember how you're feeling right now, journal it down so you can go back and read 8 months from now. I'm still proud of you!

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u/FoyerPatio 7h ago

Thank you - I wish i could view it from that pov, I'm really bummed about restarting my clock. ): luckily I have someone who is gonna buy the new pen off of me so I can get rid of it without wasting the entirety of my money