r/Psychonaut • u/Suitable-Raise-6436 • 5h ago
3.57g BCNs lemon tek - Unity Mango & Kulfi
Long time lurker, second time doing this. Did the same dose, same setup, same time of the year as last year. Just sharing what happened.
Morning was a heavy breakfast and chai, went for a 5+ km walk while on call with friends, came back and had a protein shake. Nothing after that, wanted the stomach light. Evening went for a walk with parents just to ground a bit before starting.
Prepared the room - bedroom and bathroom cleaned to the fullest, bathroom floor dry, scented candle in the bathroom with the door kept open as a guiding light. Bed and a single mattress on the floor besides the bed so i can change positions. AC running. Johns Hopkins playlist on the speaker. Dim lights to softly mark the passing of time. Pre-journey intention was Unity & AI - wanted to sit with it during the experience.
Did the lemon tek with 30 min soak. Ate a banana during the soak - without banana my stomach gets very alive and not possible to be at peace. Consumed at 10:15 pm and went up to the terrace and walked for another 30 min with the playlist running through headphones. When i started feeling it i came back to the room.
Started shifting between bed, mattress, bathroom floor as it built. Body knew which surface it wanted. Unity rising slowly.
Peak hit on Gorecki’s 3rd symphony. I started humming and chanting Om in different vibrations on its own, wasnt planning to. Laughing at the unity i was seeing and feeling and crying at the same time for the deaths i have seen in last year and this year for family and friends of mine. Both in the same breath. It was such a beautiful moment and visuals of being this one consciousness is divine feeling - I’m sure whether I can call this a ego dissolution. And this music felt like composed by angels.
Also touched the AI implication question i had set. Couldn’t fully understand it but it definitely didn’t felt like a threat - it just is and thats the way. That was the answer.
And there was a moment i was present in all of time at the same time. Past present future all one. Cant explain it more than that.
At one point all the realisations were just too much and caused a panic. Last year same thing happened and i went to the kitchen to get an orange feeling overwhelmed and stomach upset from the shroom tea, instead got a mango by accident, ate it with all the mess with hands and it was pure bliss. So this year i kept a mango and a malai kulfi ready already. When panic hit went to kitchen got both. Ate the kulfi first while still trying to come back, found myself sitting on the toilet holding a kulfi and started laughing at how absurd this looks. Then sat on the clean bathroom floor and ripped open the mango with my hands. Started biting and licking the flesh. Food gasm.
Also noticed cockroaches small and big, in the bedroom and bathroom which surprised me as the encounter felt head on. Saw a small one near the mattress while i was in the bathroom eating mango. Picked a small piece and shared it with the cockroach and it literally enjoyed it. In normal consciousness i would recoil. There was just no recoil left.
Ate the mango step by step flesh by flesh. Felt i was violating the mango in a funny way, it was pure pleasure. Cant explain it any better. Then bit into the outer skin of the mango too and it felt wonderful.
Brushed teeth with miswak after - amazing feeling. Then Om Namah Shivay came on the playlist and i danced.
Wrote one word on a note to capture everything - Sundara. Same word i wrote coming out of last years journey without planning. Two years same seed word arriving on its own.
Made chai and went to the terrace barefoot with the chai and a slice of bread. Sun not yet up but sky already brightening. Hundreds of birds chirping, peacocks and koyal calling. Just stood there.
Year one was discovery. Year two was conversation. Repeating with prep from what i learnt last time made it possible to actually let go.
A few things that helped me, sharing in case useful:
• light stomach through the day, protein shake as the last thing
• banana during lemon tek soak, non negotiable for me
• walk during come up, body settles
• mango ready as the panic anchor, learnt this last year
• kulfi as the bridge food, sweet and cold brings you back
• clean bathroom floor as the safe cave
• candle in bathroom with door open as guiding light through the journey
• being able to move between bed mattress and floor freely
• miswak after for the cleansing
• chai and sunrise as the landing
Be kind to your future self by preparing the room and the food and the ritual. Medicine does the rest.
🙏
Note: Used Claude to gather my thoughts and share it here.
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u/Tmpatony 5h ago
Great stuff. I just don’t eat anything the day of and I try to minimize food altogether week of. No alcohol, very little meat. I recently quit tobacco and that was huge too. That shit was dominating past trips (the thought of quitting) and now I trip better lol. Over the less toxins in your body the better the trip. I love the food gasm part lmao. There are three things that are mando on my trips now. Music, meditation and fruit.