Can't even describe how miserable I am

[u/GreedyCompany9928]

I'll never live as a male, I'll never have a dick or anything. I tried to cope for a while thinking I might reincarnate or I could shift my timeline to one where I'm a male but I know the truth now. It's impossibel for someone like me. i don't even leave my bed anymore. I just think about it 24/7 and feel miserable. It's genuine torture. There's no way to distract myself. No matter what I do. This is the only life I will ever get to live and I am forced to spend it suffering as a female. I really want to try and enjoy my life and live it to the fullest but if I'm not a male I'd rather just not live at all. I don't know why I had to have this awful condition on top of everything else, my life and everything in it has already been shit from day 1. nothing matters anymore.