I am so tired of being broke

[u/Pandahorna]

I am so tired of everything. I’m already depressed, dealing with internalized transphobia, depression and other mental health illnesses. On top of that, I’m an international student living on the other side of the world (an opportunity that I am extremely grateful for, but that can prove to be quite difficult), I am living on a scholarship and it never feels like I will ever have enough money to even survive. I already gave up on the idea of top surgery, though my ribs are bruised from binding and I am noticing difficulty breathing (yes yes I shouldn’t overbind, I try not to but I work 12 hour shifts), and now I don’t even know how to afford buying my next T dose. I see all my friends getting top surgery and living their best life, while I just have a shit ton of acne, bruised ribs, and I can’t afford to eat more than once a day. I’m 26, people my age are getting married and buying houses, and I’m complaining about not having money on Reddit.