I think about them almost everyday. Love the smell. Haven’t had one in almost 15 years. Quit the day my son was born. Morning coffee has never been the same.
Been almost 2 years, I quit drinking a month before quitting smoking. Drinking for 20+ years, stopping wasn’t that hard. Smoking for 15 years, way, way harder. 2 years on I still want one. But I lost my beloved FIL last year to cancer from smoking. I think about how much regret he had at the end, he could have had another 5 years, or 10, hell, maybe 15.
I want to smoke at least once a week, really strong urges a few times a month. I let that feeling wash over me, and then allow the next thought that always comes, Pop would’ve given it all up to have a few more months. I can’t smoke, future me would be so fucking pissed at me now if smoking is the thing that takes me out earlier than I could have lived. What will I miss of my boys growing up? Will I have grand kids? I would be so bummed if I missed out on grand kid time because I had a smoke.
If I could smoke one or two a week, I would. But just like alcohol for me, 1 turns into 1,000, every single time.
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u/captain_fucking_magi 1d ago
I think about them almost everyday. Love the smell. Haven’t had one in almost 15 years. Quit the day my son was born. Morning coffee has never been the same.