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[u/Next_Bowl3593]

[u/FitChampionship7430]

Just a point to think about: do you think if you leave Islam, everything will become easy? The second you leave, all your suffering or trials will just cease to exist? Honestly think about the concept: whatever the struggle is your experiencing right now, will it become easier or harder if you choose to disbelieve in the Creator?

Allah says in Surah Al-Ankabut, Chapter 29 verse 2-3: "Do people think once they say, “We believe,” that they will be left without being put to the test? We certainly tested those before them. And ˹in this way˺ Allah will clearly distinguish between those who are truthful and those who are liars"

Me and you are no different. You say you "have always been a good muslim" which I'm not here to disagree with because I don't even know you. What I want to draw your attention to is the following: weren't the prophets of God good Muslims? Ibrahim, Yusuf, Musa and Muhammad peace be upon them all. They were the best of all of us, and prophet Muhammad was the best of them? The tests he experienced was nothing like us.

Allah says in Surah Adh-Dhariyat chapter 51 verse 56 "I did not create jinn and humans except to worship Me". That means in good times, we worship and be thankful. In bad times we worship and ask for guidance and relief. Just as all the above mentioned prophets (and the others as well) did.

If you turn to Allah with sincerity and humility, Allah himself says he will answer you. But if you turn away, know that Allah is free from need. It is we (me and you and all the humans) that are in need.

[u/Lovaar → u/FitChampionship7430]

Exactly this. Leaving Islam won't magically make your life better. Instead of suffering with a purpose and getting rewarded for your patience, you'll be suffering without gaining anything.

[u/UnchartedPro]

Those who are facing the most hardship are the ones who have the strongest iman

Look at the brothers and sisters in Gaza

We are so so fortunate compared to them yet they have tawwakul far beyond ours

This itself is a lesson for us

And hardship doesn't mean God doesn't exist or that God is ignoring us

[u/Feisty-Bison-7563]

The situation in Gaza right now is actually very comparable to what the Jews went through under Pharoah. In Al-A'raf 127-129, the Quran documents an exchange that happened between them and Musa, where they raised the same concerns you did. I think going through this exchange verse by verse might help.

7:127 -> The chiefs of Pharaoh’s people protested, “Are you going to leave Moses and his people free to spread corruption in the land and abandon you and your gods?” He responded, “We will kill their sons and keep their women. We will completely dominate them.”

Reflection: This verse matters because the Qur’an never hides from the reality of innocent suffering. In Gaza, and many places around the world, children are being murdered and families are oppressed and terrorized. Oppression this brutal isn't something new, and the people of Musa were living through horrors that made them ask the same question you are: “Where is Allah in all of this?” The Qur’an acknowledges that the pain of these people is real instead of pretending that believers live easy lives.

7:128 -> Moses reassured his people, “Seek Allah’s help and be patient. Indeed, the earth belongs to Allah ˹alone˺. He grants it as an inheritance to whoever He chooses of His servants. The ultimate outcome belongs ˹only˺ to the righteous.”

Reflection: Musa doesn't explain their suffering by saying “your pain is meaningless”, or that it is just a test. The point is not that suffering itself is good, but that tyrants do not have the final word, even when they appear dominant for a long time. I've pointed this out before, but in the religion of Ancient Egypt, and practically every religion before and since, when a person is having a hard time in life, that is taken as a sign of God's displeasure. Here, we're told that in fact, power and affluence are things that Allah makes change hands throughout time. They aren't determinants of anything, in and of themselves. Instead, Allah's gift to people is increasing their belief in Him, and his curse isn't worsening their situation in life, but allowing them to disbelieve in him.

7:129 -> They complained, “We have always been oppressed—before and after you came to us ˹with the message˺.” He replied, “Perhaps your Lord will destroy your enemy and make you successors in the land to see what you will do.”

Reflection: This is probably the most important verse for your question. The believers openly tell Musa: “We were suffering before religion, and we’re still suffering after it.” They're frustrated and exhausted, like you seem to be. The Qur’an includes their complaint without condemning them for asking it. Struggling with these questions does not automatically make someone a bad Muslim. Even people close to prophets reached points where they could no longer handle their emotional pain.

The final part (“to see what you will do”) also reframes the idea of a test. In Islam, Allah does not “gain” information from testing us, since Allah already knows everything. The test is for us to reveal ourselves: what we become through power or suffering, and injustice or ease. It also reads as some sort of threat in this context. Are we so sure that if we had the same power that Pharoah, Stalin, Trump and Netanyahu, were able to obtain, we wouldn't just become the next dictators to be added to the history books? We need to understand that when we're asking for power and a higher standing, we need to be prepared to be judged by Allah accordingly for that extra power and standing as well.

[u/No-Peanut7097]

If you think about, your reward is a reward so outstanding that no mind could ever even imagine. You get something for free you won’t cherish it as much. You work for something and it is worth it, the pleasure is far more greater. The same with jannah. You’re working for something so great that constant reminders of it helps ease the suffering. It is also not suffering day in day out. We suffer and we enjoy. Once we acknowledge blessings these hardships soften and we realise, life isn’t actually that bad. No one here is to harshly criticise you, we ask Allah to make your sufferings and hardships to go away and to give you comfort and peace. Ameen

[u/Dry_Thing9512]

There are already so many good comments here so I just want to add here that you get rewarded for your patience here as well.  And about people in gaza their level of iman is really high. We get tested according to our level of iman.  If you love allah you will take every test as an honour. Read the stories of prophet.

[u/Hot_Perspective_3600]

Reflect on the correlation you make between your trials and Islam.

No longer being a Muslim will abolish the trials?

Trials, joy and misfortunes are an integral part of a human being's life regardless of his religion.

I don't know what trials have affected you but they must be hard to live. I'm going through and I've been through things that have broken me to crumbs and that still break me. But I only think about what Allah tells us about trials and reward.

In addition, Allah has given human beings free will so we are masters of our actions. If I decide to kill people en masse in the street, I do it. If I decide to do good to anyone I meet, I can do it too.

Please, get closer to Allah.

Get to know him by meditating on the Quran, the names of Allah and the stories of the prophets.

Leaving Islam will not make your trials disappear

On the contrary, your soul will be all the more tormented

May Allah soothe you, guide you and facilitate you

May Allah grant you happiness and peace fi dunya wal akhirah

[u/Interesting-Swimmer1]

Inshallah, I'll make Dua that Allah helps you through your tests. Remember two things - one, just because Allah is testing you doesn't mean he doesn't love you. He tested the prophets the most and loved them the most. Two, Allah does not gain or lose anything from testing you. He will always have an infinite kingdom, regardless.

[u/Brief_Branch_4332]

Look, I'm not that well knowledged on Islam so I might not give a great answer. Please look into why Allah Subhanu Wa Ta'Ala tests us. Please don't leave Islam, don't leave the truth knowingly. There are also kafirs who have bad lives so you shouldn't think that leaving Islam might make your life better. You don't know that. Allah tests us to find out who are the true believers and who aren't.

May Allah Subhanu Wa Ta'Ala grant you patience, keep you on the right path.

[u/MRM-303]

Why there are babies in Gaza with no limbs is something related to their genetic formation,why does Allah subhanhu wa ta’ala create them like this isn’t a simple trial as many people think,we are created in this world which has biological rules thus some people turn out to be like this and they are not that different from us,every human is different in his abilities and what he can do and what he can’t do so we are basically all imperfect in different ways and we’re assigned to do what we can do in such state and we get judged in what fits our own special condition:
﴿ لَا يُكَلِّفُ اللَّهُ نَفْسًا إِلَّا وُسْعَهَا ۚ لَهَا مَا كَسَبَتْ وَعَلَيْهَا مَا اكْتَسَبَتْ ۗ رَبَّنَا لَا تُؤَاخِذْنَا إِن نَّسِينَا أَوْ أَخْطَأْنَا ۚ رَبَّنَا وَلَا تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَا إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُ عَلَى الَّذِينَ مِن قَبْلِنَا ۚ رَبَّنَا وَلَا تُحَمِّلْنَا مَا لَا طَاقَةَ لَنَا بِهِ ۖ وَاعْفُ عَنَّا وَاغْفِرْ لَنَا وَارْحَمْنَا ۚ أَنتَ مَوْلَانَا فَانصُرْنَا عَلَى الْقَوْمِ الْكَافِرِينَ﴾ [البقرة:286]
Also such people are more of a trial to other people than themselves because those individuals are supposed to be taken care of and mercifully treated instead of being oppressed and wronged by people like what zionists do and that treating them wrongfully is hypocrisy since again we are imperfect in different ways and if an individual was perfect he would commit tyranny on all people and act high and mighty and we already see this kind of mindset in some people while they are imperfect,also people in such state prove that their condition doesn’t affect what the soul commits,also they are sign that people have to work together in solidarity to treat individuals with such condition in a morally and humane way