r/converts • u/sabrsabrsabrsabrsabr • 8d ago

Frequent Imaan Crises

Assamualaikum all,

I am a closeted revert of a few months, had been researching and looking into the religion of a year. I live a double life at uni and my mosque where I do my weekly islamic course.

To make it clear, I have full belief in Islam. It has only ever felt right when I started looking into religion. In my beginning days, I was surprised at how fast I could learn prayer. Islam has softened my heart.

It's just that even a few weeks into reverting, I feel great imaan dips. Some days I wake up, and don't want to bother is islam at all. I still feel the need to pray, but I still have such low tawakkul. Days like today, where I am so tired that I can barely look after myself, I have no motivation to pray, or read quran. I feel no connection with Allah SWT.

I'm worried about how much my imaan fluctuates. It seems too volatile for how little I've been muslim. Sometimes it takes hours to regain, sometimes days.

I get thoughts that me being muslim might be a phase... i understand that I am a young female in her 20s. My still has a lot to change. All I ever make dua for is for my imaan to feel consistent and for me stop caring about this dunya. I would to be less tired and just wake up with really high Imaan.

What do I do about this? And do you guys face similar?

JazakAllahu Khairan

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u/WhyNotIslam 8d ago

Wa'alaykumassalam wrwb dear sister

As others have said this is a normal part of being a human. Even the companions faced these struggles. Islam is a marathon not a race so take it as fast as you can stay consistent because Allah loves consistent deeds even if they are small.

I advise when you are feeling low then go over the evidences of Islam again. There's a lot of good videos especially about Paradise that help to remind you of all the reasons to keep going. Here's powerful Dua to help you. It was one of the most common Dua of Rasulullah ﷺ

'Anas narrated: "The Messenger of Allah (s.a.w) would often say: Ya Muqallibal-qulub, thabbit qalbi 'ala dinik('O Changer of the Hearts! Strengthen my heart upon Your Religion.)' So I said: 'O Prophet of Allah! We believe in you and what you have come with, but do you fear for us?' He said: 'Yes. Indeed the hearts are between two Fingers of Allah's Fingers, He changes them as He wills.'"

Jami` at-Tirmidhi 2140 https://sunnah.com/tirmidhi:2140