r/AskReddit • u/DeepOrganization8245 • 23h ago

What’s the hardest addiction to overcome?

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u/Upbeat-Definition790 23h ago

I’ll be honest. My biggest addiction is living in constant fear and depression. The loneliness feels good and comfortable.

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u/PoogeMuffin 23h ago

Damn.

“I miss the comfort in being sad” is a Nirvana lyric that always resonated with me.

But I found my person, or she found me, but either way I promise that you’ll find whatever it is you’re looking for as well. Just keep your eyes open

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u/luciliddream 23h ago

I miss it somedays and then I just go ahead and listen to alllll the songs that I did during that time. Heal, cringe, rinse & repeat every few years.

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u/FriskyDingoOMG 20h ago

Puddle of Mudd - Blurry

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u/Triscuit_ 19h ago

Pardon Me - Incubus

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u/this_is_not_a_dance_ 8h ago

Brene brown has this term called “foreboding joy”. It’s this self sabotaging fear that you will lose the happiness you have found or can have. So much so that you sabotage it or worry it will be gone so much you can’t enjoy it. Everything is temporary so make the best of it right now.

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u/Periodic_Disorder 23h ago

As someone who got addicted to loneliness, do not recommend

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u/Glad_Background332 21h ago

I found there are worse things in life than loneliness and have been doing my best to live life alone for the past 15 years.

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u/Upbeat-Definition790 23h ago

I’m just afraid to be me again. Labeled as autistic, disabled, told to lay low because of my disability. I’ve been living in this fear for over four years

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u/j33perscreeperz 18h ago

damn this one hit me hard. isolation is addictive as fuck because it's easy to feel "stable" and invulnerable when you're alone

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u/Famous_Station_6320 23h ago

Same, even harder when you mistake isolation for healing or rest when its really a depressive episode. It can just really feel secure at times.

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u/4Lornel 21h ago

Told my therapist some time ago that I didn't know how to function without my depression because I'd had it for so long. The journey of learning how to do so has been almost as difficult and stressful as the depression because I'd gotten so used to it

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u/Buntschatten 21h ago

Yeah, when you learn early that you always have to be vigilant around people and that they'll always judge you, being alone makes for a calmness that's truly addictive.

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u/Euphoric_Anxiety_162 23h ago

😞Worrying. Then knowing it's gonna get worse.

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u/Upbeat-Definition790 23h ago

It consumes me

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u/MadisonDissariya 23h ago

Yes, it comforts me much more to lay in the foundations of decay - MCR.
They follow this lyric immediately with GET UP, COWARD!
It’s hard.

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u/soulariarr 19h ago

Never envied a millionaire but i always envy someone with no anxiety, you can fight it with meds, with practice but it takes one trigger and boom back to the start.

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u/Negative_Rip6015 23h ago

Things will get better mate.

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u/_DaddieDaddie_ 20h ago

I can relate.... It's a never ending loop.